I told the Major that I didn't want or deserve the metal because I wasn't trying to be a hero at the time, I was just trying to keep myself from being caught in the open rice paddy with all of my men. I thought less was better, and I was scared shitless. I said that the men that I was trying to save were the real heros and most of them didn't make it.But he gave me a direct order sighting that I was still bound to his orders and the corps.
