Like the majority of Team Rubicon's 90,000-plus volunteers, I am a military veteran. I retired from the Coast Guard in April of 2016 after a 27-year career, which included 16 years of sea time on a variety of Coast Guard vessels up and down the East Coast. My desire to join the military wasn't born from a desire for action or service, but rather from necessity. After my service, I found an option to utilize my skills and education through a disaster relief organization called Team Rubicon.
Long before Team Rubicon came into existence, I joined the service in 1989. Up to that point, there was very little stability in my life. I was the firstborn of my mother and father's marriage, but not their first. All total, I am one of 8 combined siblings between my parents and their previous relationships. My younger siblings and I grew up in foster homes before relocating to Maine in 1977, where we continued to reside in the foster care system. At the age of 16, I became an emancipated minor and thus began my journey into adulthood, college, work, life, and finally, parenthood at 22. At this point, I had no choice but to join military service if I were going to provide properly for my new and unexpected family.
Prior to this phase, I had several friends who joined the military and tried to encourage me to do the same. I had no desire to join the Marines or Army, as I didn't care to go to war on foreign soil. I certainly had no desire to join the Navy and be away from home for months or even years. The Air Force never appealed to me as I didn't care about aviation. That left the Coast Guard. I grew up in coastal Maine and recalled seeing Coast Guard stations and buoy tenders in Rockland and other communities for years. My future father in law had recently retired from the Coast Guard, so he encouraged me to investigate the service and see what they offered. I was enticed by the humanitarian aspect of the service but also wanted to join the front lines of the war on drugs. In February 1989, I signed on the dotted line in a Portland ME Coast Guard recruiting office and began my journey into law enforcement and humanitarian shortly after completing boot camp in Cape May, NJ, with my first assignment to a 270-ft Coast Guard cutter out of Portsmouth VA.
Over the next 27 years I would serve on several other ships, help rescue Cuban, Haitian and Dominican migrants at sea, respond to natural disasters, including hurricanes, witnessed 9-11 first hand, tow disabled vessels back into port, enforce fisheries and natural resources laws, inspect merchant ships, publish navigational information for mariners, fight fires at sea, coordinate search and rescue cases, inspect recreational, commercial, and fishing vessels, train junior members, and finally perform maintenance work on hundreds of aids to navigation in the New England area. I always felt a sense of accomplishment that what I did helped make our coasts and oceans safer, enriched the lives saved so they could go home to their loved ones, left the world a better place than what I found, and helped others succeed in their careers.
I did all this knowing that I took an oath to defend our country, uphold our Constitution against all enemies foreign and domestic, and die if necessary while serving alongside the very same sailors and shipmates who took the same oath and believed in the same ideals and goals. It was a very satisfying and rewarding experience, one which I never thought could be replicated ever again. I was fortunate to live through some of these harrowing experiences, but never forgot those who made the ultimate sacrifice in our service performing those duties. Many of these sailors, shipmates, and airmen lost their lives knowing the inherent risks involved in performing these missions, yet they went forth without hesitation, not knowing if they'd ever come back home, and sadly, never did.
Even though I maintained many friendships throughout my career and beyond with many of my Coast Guard shipmates, I still fell into a severe depression and state of loneliness after I retired. I missed the calling, the dependency on being there for those less fortunate, and missed the work hard, play hard mentality on patrol and during our port call visits and experiences with other shipmates. I tried to make the best use of my new downtime by going back to school, taking online and on-campus classes, and in the process earned my associate's and bachelor's degrees. However, my personal life faltered with relationships and family. I was truly going through post-deployment depression, to put it mildly. My health struggled and I found myself hating to face each day because I really felt like there wasn't much to look forward to.
In the meantime, I found out a former co-worker, who was now out of the Coast Guard and herself getting her college degree, joined Team Rubicon. I had heard of them briefly and saw one of their vehicles rolling down the highway in New Hampshire one day, but I had no real idea of what they did or who they were. At the time, I had a keen interest in getting an emergency management degree but wanted a more real life experience to go with that pursuit. Nonetheless, I signed up for Team Rubicon and then forgot about them, like many others probably have done, figuring I was too busy for it.
Life moved on. My stepdaughter graduated high school, my girlfriend and I sold our home in Maine and we relocated to a new home in Florida. We volunteered in animal rescue and discovered a passion for helping others through disaster, deploying to Panama City and Bainbridge GA in the wake of Hurricane Michael. On our first trip we brought over 200 cats and dogs to Atlanta, animals who would have otherwise been euthanized had we not gotten to the rescue site in time. It was then I started to feel the calling return to help those less fortunate, and so I looked into Team Rubicon once more. I went back through my Coast Guard career, updated all of my training and lateraled it over to Team Rubicon, took all of the training offered by FEMA, and started to make myself available for various Team Rubicon ops and training sessions.
After completing Core Ops in Atlanta, my first opportunity to serve came when I volunteered for remote ops in the wake of Hurricane Michael. It was during this time I received phone calls from people desperate for help. I took the information down and plugged data into a computer, but more importantly, I listened to every single person who needed help, and heard the despair and pleading in their voices for something, anything, anyone, to come help them from the hurricane damage. Several times I was left in tears after these phone calls. I began dreading the calls after the first couple of days because it was so depressing to hear the sadness and trembling in some of the voices, particularly from the elderly or families with young children. Yet here I was in the comfort of my own home, drinking hot coffee and working in an air conditioned office, feeling bad about myself. And then I'd go on Facebook and read the posts from those already deployed or engaged in remote ops, read their experiences and what they were dealing with, and finally realized what I was dealing with wasn't really that bad. It was more important to be there for those less fortunate. Giving to others who need help, those who need others who are capable of giving and can be there at a moment's notice when the call goes out is what really matters. My thinking was significantly altered at that point.
Later I received the opportunity to deploy to Panama City in December 2018. The area was still gravely decimated by Hurricane Michael, and cleanup moved along at a snail's pace. I found myself completely humbled by what I saw and who I met. I discovered many of us were still fighting battles no one could see, and that the only way to get through some of these issues was to head into these arenas with others who knew exactly what we were going through, then share our experiences whenever possible so we didn't have to keep everything inside and bottled up. It was extremely gratifying to be surrounded by so many grey shirts who needed that calling to feel a sense of purpose again, and to work for an organization which goes far above and beyond to make sure we are cared for while we are caring for those who truly need us, and to be there for other Grey Shirts going through those invisible battles.
In other words, we were all learning to live. Team Rubicon was teaching us just that, and more. Instead of being willing to die for what we used to do, we were now learning to live for what we could do. We were helping not only those who experienced traumatic events and felt hopeless or lost, but we were also helping others who needed to see their true worth in making themselves available for others, every single day. In a sense, much like many of the muck-outs we were performing for homeowners, we were learning to muck ourselves down to our foundations and walls, so we could learn how to rebuild ourselves again. We all learned to see ourselves as humans, not robots, and to see ourselves worthy of contributing to society again while being given the opportunity to experience camaraderie and fellowship the military once gave us.
Since my first deployment to Panama City, I've volunteered for four more Houston rebuild deployments and also deployed to Collier County, FL. It was during my July Houston deployment I heard the words which headlined this writing. One of the Clay Hunt Fellowship cohorts spoke, after we all shared our experiences, and said what we all needed to hear - that while we were taught by the military to die for our country, Team Rubicon helped us live for it. What a significant and profound statement.
In all of my Team Rubicon experiences, I walked into a room full of strangers, then left knowing I have family, brothers, sisters, all Grey Shirt comrades for life, and friends and family to truly live for. I made lifelong friends with a young Minnesota politician, a Marine vet from Virginia, a former cop from Buffalo, another cop from Greensboro NC, a young college grad on her very first deployment, and discovered other Grey shirts who served in the Coast Guard or lived near my home in Maine. I even met a Grey Shirt who had the same passion for cat rescue as my girlfriend and I did. We shared our struggles and realized we didn't have to be ashamed of our feelings. Every grey shirt in those rooms listened to us, hugged us, shook our hands, helped build our self-esteem up, and let us know we weren't alone. We no longer needed to die for a cause. We could now live for one and be there for others who need us just as badly as we need them.
Team Rubicon helped us, and continues to help us, see our value and true worth by giving us opportunities to help those who are at, or were near, one of the lowest moments of their lives. People lost more than their homes. They lost their livelihoods, their memories, their cherished possessions, and possibly even family and friends. We were, and are here, to help them get back on their feet, to restore their lives, to live again, and to restore their faith in humanity. In those moments, Team Rubicon is helping me and other fellow grey shirts learn we don't need to die for our country to ensure others can live freely. We are here today, tomorrow, and in the future, ready for the call, living a life of purpose so that we help others stay alive and healthy. Team Rubicon truly is helping us live for our country and others so that no one has to die for it. I know this to be true because every one of us leaves here completely changed with a burning desire to come back again, to continue helping those devastated by disaster to resume normalcy in their lives. That is a cause truly worth living for.
Aerial combat, like naval combat, has many risks attached to it, many of which arise from the fact that the human beings involved in such battles are far removed from their natural element: land.
Whether a few thousand miles out to sea, or a few thousand feet up in the air, when you're fighting so far out of your natural element, you risk death not only from your enemy's weaponry but also from the inherent danger of falling from the skies or into the unforgiving ocean.
While we have invented means to mitigate these dangers, such as lifeboats and parachutes if these last resorts fail, death is usually a certainty.
Indeed, plummeting to the earth without a parachute from 18,000 feet in the air is pretty much guaranteed to end only one way for the unfortunate person involved - but, as history has often taught us there are always exceptions to the rules, and one man who miraculously survived a parachute-less jump from his burning airplane was World War II RAF airman Nicholas Alkemade.
Nicholas Alkemade was born in 1922 in Norfolk, England, and was a gardener before signing up with the Royal Air Force when WWII broke out. He was trained as an air gunner, and after completing his training, he served as a tail gunner with RAF 115 Squadron.
Alkemade was part of a crew that flew an Avro Lancaster MK II bomber, which was capable of carrying the largest bombs used by the RAF during the Second World War. These bombers often flew night missions, and, as such, the bomber that Alkemade's crew manned was christened Werewolf.
Alkemade flew fourteen successful missions with the crew of Werewolf, and on the night of March 24, 1944, they were part of a bombing raid targeting Berlin. They successfully delivered their payload, but on the return journey, heavy winds took them off course. They ended up flying over the Ruhr region, which had a high concentration of anti-aircraft defenses.
Werewolf was attacked from below by a German night-fighter aircraft, and the resulting damage tore up Werewolf's wing and fuselage and set the plane on fire. It was obvious that Werewolf was beyond salvation, and the pilot ordered the crew to grab their parachutes in preparation for an emergency exit from the burning aircraft.
Alkemade, alone in his turret at the back of the plane, was already being scorched by the flames, with his rubber oxygen mask beginning to melt on his face, and his arms seared by the fire. Scrambling for his parachute in a panic, he was hit with a moment of pure dread when he finally located it - for his parachute, like everything else around him, was on fire.
Faced with a terrible choice - that of burning to death or falling to his death, Alkemade chose the latter option. Better to suffer the brief terror of the fall and have a swift, merciful end than suffer through the torment of fire. He jumped from the burning plane without his parachute, and, falling at almost 120mph and looking up at the starry sky and the burning airplane from which he had just jumped, he lost consciousness.
Amazingly he woke up three hours later, lying in deep snow in a pine forest. It seemed that the flexible young pines had slowed his descent enough that the snow was able to cushion his fall. He had not broken any bones but had managed to sprain his knee after his 18,000-foot fall from the sky. In addition, he had suffered burn wounds from the fire and had pieces of perspex from his flak-shattered screen embedded in his skin.
While he had survived the fall, surviving the rest of the night was not a guarantee. His knee was in too much pain for him to walk, and the cold was beginning to take its toll.
He began blowing his distress whistle, which eventually attracted the attention of some German civilians. He was taken to Meschede Hospital where his wounds were treated, and when he was well enough to talk, he several by the Gestapo.
He told them his story, but they refused to believe that he could have survived such a fall without a parachute. They insisted that he had buried his parachute somewhere and that he was a spy - but when they sent men to investigate the landing site, as well as the wreckage of Werewolf, they were amazed to find that the remains of Alkemade's parachute were indeed still in the wreckage of the plane.
Alkemade then became something of a celebrity and met a number of Luftwaffe officers who wanted to hear about his miraculous jump. However, this did not earn him any special treatment, and like any other captured Allied airman, he was sent to the notorious prison camp Stalag Luft III.
Alkemade's luck remained with him, though. When the camp's 10,000 inmates were forced to trek hundreds of miles across northern Germany, through a blizzard, with temperatures dropping as low as -22 degrees C, he survived and was eventually liberated.
After the war, Alkemade worked in the chemical industry in the UK and lived to the age of 64. He passed away in June 1987.
Sledge's memoir gives a firsthand and unapologetically honest perspective on the Pacific Theater of World War II. His memoir is a front-line account of infantry combat in the Pacific War. It brings the reader into the island hopping, the jungle heat and rain, the filth and malaise, the fear of potential "banzai attacks," and the hopelessness and loss of humanity that so uniquely characterized the campaign in the Pacific. Sledge wrote starkly of the brutality displayed by Japanese soldiers during the battles and of the hatred that both sides harbored for each other. In Sledge's words, "This was a brutish, primitive hatred, as characteristic of the horror of war in the Pacific as the palm trees and the islands."
Sledge describes one instance in which he and a comrade came across the mutilated bodies of three Marines, butchered and with severed genitals stuffed into their mouths. He also describes the behavior of some Marines towards dead Japanese, including the removal of gold teeth from Japanese corpses, as well as other macabre trophy-taking. He details the process and mechanisms that slowly strip away a soldier's humanity and compassion, making the thought process accessible to those who have never served in combat.
Sledge describes in detail the sheer physical struggle of living in a combat zone and the debilitating effects of constant fear, fatigue, and filth. "Fear and filth went hand-in-hand," he wrote. "It has always puzzled me that this important factor in our daily lives has received so little attention from historians and is often omitted from otherwise excellent personal memoirs by infantrymen." Marines had trouble staying dry, finding time to eat their rations, practicing basic field sanitation (it was impossible to dig latrines in the coral rock on Peleliu), and simply moving around on the pulverized coral of Peleliu and in the mud of Okinawa.
One of the themes of "With the Old Breed," regardless of which battle Sledge is recounting, is the near impossibility of communicating the experience of combat to those who have not experienced it.
It's time to move this book to a higher shelf, to that of nonfiction that is outstanding literature.
Readers Reviews
"In all the literature on the Second World War, there is not a more honest, realistic or moving memoir than Eugene Sledge's. This is the real deal, the real war: unvarnished, brutal, without a shred of sentimentality or false patriotism, a profound primer on what it was it like to be in that war. It is a classic that will outlive all the armchair generals' safe accounts of - not the 'good war' - but the worst war ever."
~Ken Burns
"Eugene Sledge became more than a legend with his memoir, 'With The Old Breed.' He became a chronicler, a historian, a storyteller who turns the extremes of the war in the Pacific - the terror, the camaraderie, the banal and the extraordinary - into terms we mortals can grasp."
~Tom Hanks
This is the best first-person book on the Pacific war in World War Two that I have ever read. To be fair, I have many more books on the ETO, but this book stands out as a moving account of the miseries of the common soldier who fought eyeball to eyeball with his Japanese counterparts in the steamy jungles.
Eugene Sledge is an example of American manhood that I fear is lost. A young man from a good family who was anxious to defend his country, he and his fellow Marines willingly suffered for their country in a way I doubt many young people today would. I hope I'm wrong.
I've found the most moving stories of WWII don't come from historians, but from the common fighting man. This is one of the best.
~1History Buff
No doubt, the greatest book I have ever read. Leaving no emotion untouched, Sledge strips away any notion of glory in battle. I understand war is brutal and senseless, but I now have a new outlook that reinforces that opinion. Should be read by students and anyone who wants to join the military. Praise those who were forced to endure battle. No one can fully grasp the experience, without being there. I do know that I would be very reluctant to.
~Mr. Krinkle
About the Author
E. B. "Sledgehammer" Sledge was born and grew up in Mobile. In late 1943 he enlisted in the U.S. Marine Corps. After basic training, he was sent to the Pacific Theater where he fought at Peleliu and Okinawa, two of the fiercest battles of World War II. Following the Japanese surrender, Sledge served in China as part of the occupation force. Upon his return home, he obtained a Ph.D. in biology and joined the faculty of Alabama College (later the University of Montevallo), where he taught until retirement. Sledge initially wrote about his war experiences to explain them to his family, but he was persuaded by his wife to seek publication. Sledge died on March 3, 2001.
Much of what E.B. Sledge wrote in his book was a major part of HBO's "The Pacific."